Jess.Sayin.....

“Peter: If I grow up, I-I'll have to get a job in an office and marry a girl and shave my face and buy a house... and have children and keep pets and be responsible and drive a car and nothing will ever be fun again.”  ―  Andy Winter,  Peter Pan Let’s be honest, we’ve all laughed at a good  adulting  meme that so adequately describes the difficulties of trying to  be a grown up and do the responsible thing. I will be the first one to admit that the majority of the first half of my twenties was a complete train wreck.  I didn’t own a rain coat for most of it.  A rain coat.  Even small children own rain coats.  I also literally did not understand the phrase  take it with a grain of salt  until like two weeks ago. Okay....maybe it was more than 2 weeks ago but I spent a good bit of time not really knowing what that phrase meant.  You can also add " Dont count your chickens before they hatch " to that.  So you know, ...

  “If I had a flower for every time I thought of you...I could walk through my garden forever.” When I was a little girl, at some point, I fell in love with love. Or so I thought.   I had this idea of what I thought love was: it was Harry telling Sally on New Year’s Eve just how much she meant to him; it was Goldie Hawn and Kurt Russell jumping ship and swimming toward each other at the end of  Overboard ; it was Zack Morris and Kelly Kapowski overcoming various obstacles throughout high school and college to end up together in the end; it was Cory Matthews and Topanga Lawrence finally realizing how they felt about one another after years of growing up together; it was Todd placing three different candy hearts that said “Marry me” on them in front of Christy before she finally realized he was proposing (and most of you have probably never read the  Christy Miller Series , but you should); it was Squints Palledorous jumping into the deep end of the pool, knowing he co...

  There's one thing about writing that makes a lot of people uncomfortable, it's the one thing that hinders someone from being a  really great writer and keeps them at being just a really good writer. What I'm talking about is vulnerability....people write about what they know and what they know is most of the time from personal experiences. When you write about a personal experience ,whether it be good or bad, your putting yourself out there. You're putting your most personal, intimate and internal thoughts into the universe for everyone to read and a analyze. You're opening yourself up to criticism.  That scares a lot of people...myself included.  Well, here's where that little problem called "Vulnerability" comes in....I write alot and mostly it's just what I'm feeling at the time, from past expierences, or even from a more recent event. Just whatever comes to mind at that time.  When I think about putting some of what's in my head out i...

  “Every molecule in our body is conditioned through millions of years of natural selection to ensure our survival, but if you can jeopardize your own survival to lift up another life, that, my friend, is called human life.”   Sometimes in life we meet people who makes an impression on our life.  Someone who you just can't put your finger on it ...but you just know.....they will become an intricate part of your life in some fashion.  For me that would be a little blonde haired spit fire of a softball player, whom I would soon grow to not only love...but to think of as one of my own.  It all  started with a phone call from one of our friends Michelle. She had been Baileys Rec. Ball coach for 2 years.  She called and told Travis about a Travel Ball tryout opportunity for Bailey.  Now.... I wasn't all for the Travel ball life at first BUT it was something Travis and Bailey had been interested in ....so I caved.  Within a...

"I've  been thinking a lot about heart strings, invisible threads, and the ways in which people enter your story for a page or a chapter and change the entire ending. Regardless of whether people come into your life by fate or chance, I've always been the kind of person that believes our interactions result in a connection. and so by the end of our lives, we could have an infinite amount of threads linked to other people’s lives, memories, and stories. and although it’s been grudgingly so, i’ve come to accept that not all people are here to stay; i’ve learned that the lesson and impact they bring often requires an ending." I've been thinking about all of the people that come into our lives for different lengths of stay. I like the idea of an invisible thread that links you to all of the people who shape who you will become in this life. Perhaps it is a ball of tangled string- sometimes tied complicatedly in knots and sometimes loosely bound together- or an uncount...